| | Heh... i really dont write in xanga that much.. most of the things i write turn out pretty lame or cheesey. But i think it would be cool to look at my oldself and my oldways of thinking. Getting to the point... i had my first night of "EMO" drunkardness... (so fucking GAY!!!) yea... no one likes a drunk person... and in return i did not like anyone else either. I asked one of my good friends Julie Nadres to take me home. She has been a real good friend to me... shes always there.. i dont know why? I always took her for granted, a good friend that does stuff for you and checks up on you at random is hard to find (Well for me anyways i dont know about other people)... I still dont treat her right.... wtf is wrong with me... The next morning (I woke up drunk -_- ) I tried to classify what a best friend is.. Cotemplating, i went outside of my house and started to walk. I walked.... the same path down Joralemon St. The same path i used to walk everyday going to elementary school. It was nice enojoying the morning air. I ended up at my old school, School Number 7. A smile grew on my face as i reminiced about my old memories and how me and my best friends used to be... We're not like that anymore.. They turned out to have weird ego problems or be real fucking apathetic.. but wen all that is put aside the good times roll. (cliche) I began to walk to my highschool.. and did the same fucking emo chessey shit... From a distance I saw little kids playing in a little league recreational baseball team (wtf did i jus say?) I sat down and watched with content. I saw happy families watching their 5 year old kids attempt to play baseball. It was cute... ANYWAY... i could that tell these were good people its just a feeling i got.. i cant explain.. A lot of thoughts ran into my head "Is this my future?" It didnt look so bad...On the other hand "These kids are gonna grow up.. and fucking hate you..." as i smiled bitterly.."Is my life so lame that i have reduced myself to watching little league baseball?" Yeaa...Iam getting fuckin bored of writing right now.. long story short... i ran into a garage sale and looked at stuff formothers day, did more emo shit... then went to Julie's to chill and wake her up for work... I lost my phone.. GRRRrrr.... gotta go to GSP.. study wit ron.. and.. uh... dave remedio party... argh! and the moral of the story is i gotta fuckin chip on my shoulder... 
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| | Posted 5/13/2006 12:03 PM - 12 Views - 2 eProps - 2 comments
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